Day 104

Thursday 02 July

I would start these mid-week posts with a certain dread thinking that I wouldn’t have enough to talk about. Get up, go to work, come home, go for a walk, go to bed. But I have to remind myself that this is a blog for me.

During the week it’s usually only the evening walk that I want to write about. It’s the observations and thoughts that occur during the one hour stroll with Mabel and the family that I want to read about in the future.

I have learnt so much about myself in this past couple of years. It’s like these past few months have enabled me to consolidate this understanding.

I am generally very happy with who I am and that comes from knowing what makes me truly happy. I have to battle off the invaders of wanting to live in a bigger house, have some land, go on long distance holidays and not have to watch the bank account towards the end of the month. But I know that those are all fundamentally related to wanting more money. When I realise that, I feel guilty. And a bit shallow.

So, actually, this has been quite a pleasing post. Ditch the midweek wants and wishing-I-had’s. Instead be happy with what I already have. A shelter, food to eat, and a loving family.